If I died tomorrow...

I was listening to Jim Rome today when he interviewed Mark Zupan. You may know Mark from the movie Murderball, a film about quadriplegics who play full-contact rugby in wheelchairs - overcoming unimaginable obstacles to compete in the Paralympic Games in Athens, Greece. The accident that caused Mark's disability is truly tragic, but to hear what the man has accomplished since makes the rest of us look like we are disabled. His book GIMP: When Life Deals You a Crappy Hand, You Can Fold -or You Can Play chronicles his story.

After the interview, the remaining hour and a half of show turned to a discussion about Zupan. Rome himself said he feels like he's operating at "25% efficiency" when he hears what someone like Zupan is able to do. He said you can't help but look yourself in the mirror and begin to question if you are living life to the fullest after hearing someone who was dealt such a raw deal do so much. So for the rest of the show it was call after call, email after email, about how Mark's story is inspiring said listener to do more with their life - to make the most out of every second they have.

And while I certainly find Zupan's story inspirational, I didn't have the same reaction. There have been times in my life where I've been doing stupid shit with my time, but I can honestly say that right now that's not the case. I can look myself in the mirror every day and say that I am doing everything within my power to live the life I want to live, the life I feel like I was born to live.

Whenever the topic comes up in my head, I ask myself the question:

If I died tomorrow, how would I feel about my life?

Would I feel like I wasted time on trivial and unimportant things? Nope. Would I feel like I didn't have enough fun, that I wasted too much time working? Nope. Would I feel like I neglected loved ones? Nope. Would I feel like I was greedy and only thought of myself? Not really, although I always think I can be less selfish and more selfless

In short, I feel pretty damn good about what I'm doing with my life. If I died tomorrow, I'd certainly feel like I had unfinished business...but honestly, will there ever be a time when I die that I don't have more that I want to accomplish? Death probably will never come at a good time, so all you can do is make the best of your time until it happens.

Now I'm not trying to say that I'm perfect or that I'm living a "perfect" life, just that I'm giving it my all, each and every day, and I can't fault myself for that.